A Letter To Anyone Who Cares, Written While I Listen To Alexisonfire

[Fuck they are a great band.]

Dear Poor Decision Maker,

After being there through all the heartache, and witnessing all the bullshit you went through, why would you insert yourself back in that situation? It doesn’t make sense to me. The only thing worse is he could’ve had your parents killed. I don’t know if it’s a permanent thing or not, but still. I’m not judging your feelings, or any decisions you choose to make regarding your future. I’m not innocent enough to judge. God forbid I, of all people, tell someone not to follow their heart. I consider myself to be a forgiving soul, but you have a heart the side of Asia to jump that hurdle.

What really upsets me is how you introduced him into an environment you were invited into by someone who saved you at your time of dying. We were all there, and I know we all feel betrayed. To be upset with the person who took you in because the guest you brought is not welcome there is unforgiveable. You have no right. You know how much hate we all have for that boy because of what he did.

I’ve seen a change in you this past year; one I don’t fault you for. I believe it all stemmed from being tossed into a hurricane of emotion and not really knowing where you were going to end up once the clouds cleared. I can sympathize with that scenario. When someone is put to the test like that, the best outcome is to grow and learn and become better, faster, stronger than your previous self. Sadly, I feel you make have gone slightly in the other direction, and knowing he is most likely the cause of it, brings up new resentment knowing he has reentered your life.

Like I stated earlier, I am a firm believer in forgiveness when it is deserved. However, so little time has passed since the infraction, he hasn’t time himself to grow and learn from his major mistakes. He is no greater than I am, and the demons he possesses aren’t easily scared away, and it took me two separate years of growth to be the great member of the social society I am today.

All I can say for now is good luck. I’m not sure if I can be there standing and watching as this goes down. I hope the change you seek has come to be.

Signed with Much Love,

Ursus Rex

I stay in time and watch you pass by… I draw this line and hope you’ll take my side… You shouldn’t have to fight alone… It’s nobody’s battle but your own…